I never knew I was going to have a penis bigger than 90% of the world’s population ( of course, it’s only about 60 -70th percentile of the Kenyan population ).
Sometimes I look at the studies on penis length and girth, and condom size charts, just to make sure. I love how my dick doesn’t fit through a toilet paper roll ( does that mean that I pass that test, …or fail ? )I used to think, I’m average, and that’s the size all guys have, and I still feel I could use a little more length…In the men’s changing rooms, there are guys who will wander the place naked, seemingly unaware of the stares, and show off their penises. I saw one once, and thought, wow, I’ll never be that size…and so I Ieft it at that. That was my adolescence. Growing up , I was too shy to speak to the girls who I dug…shyness, racism, being the only (almost) asian in the entire school, and a perception that I only had a small cock kept me from showing some swag, and approaching girls.
But some things I just couldn’t explain. When I was a 4 year old, we had nursemaids ( this is post colonial thailand, and our family was moderately well off ) , who had to dress me. There was one, who I had a terrible crush on, who always had trouble putting my cock into my pants, ( since it was hot there, we dispensed with underwear), and a couple times zipped up my foreskin…of course, I howled…I always thought she was just not good at zipping up little boys’ pants.
Then when i was 18 , I went to a “massage” parlor. There, the girls always were always smiling staring it,when it grew hard in their hands, they would let go, as if scared of it.. showering it with compliments, like “oh , it’s such a fatty “ , or “wow, huge “. I always chalked it up to them stroking my ego , their way of ensuring I would come back and pay them a visit again…it worked,of course…then once, when we were both lounging around, naked, in bed, she slipped out of the room , and when I wasn’t looking, snuck one of her girlfriends/coworkers in the room..who tried to lift the bedcovers to have a peak…
Later in my life, my first wife would say, randomly, “when you come, your dick gets really big…ooooh”…and I couldn’t understand that, since I always thought that erect size didn’t change once maxed out. But she seemed to think the opposite.We used to have sex, her on top, sitting in the backseat of her Audi , at Washington National Airport Parking lot . In those days, I still harbored the notion that my penis was small to medium..I never measured…and so I would buy extra thin condoms, so I would get more sensation at the tip…little did I realize that thin condoms are not only thin skin, but narrower girth than the average… I always used to think it was supposed to hurt to put the condom on..rolling it on always was a bit of a pain…then one day , it broke, so it made me think, well yeah, maybe I should graduate up a size….so I bought a natural lambskin condom…when I put it on, it was completely comfy, easy to roll on…it didn’t bunch up, but i was so used to the super tight little latex ones, i got paranoid they would fall off…but my SO at the time that it fit just fine…come to find out, Naturalamb skins are even bigger than Magnum XLs….then I used to think it was supposed to roll all the way down, and the condom would run out, but there was always a little left to roll down, unless i counted rolling it the bottom of the penis, where it always rolled to the end…I didn’t know these were 8 inch condoms, and yes you were supposed to roll them down to the end, but nobody expected you to actually use up all of the length…so I still thought I was on the short end.
Then there is the issue of whether women look at guys’ packages. If you asked me a couple of years ago, I wold have voted no, but it seems, oh yes, women do look, and a lot. My current S.O. would start to complain to me that I was showing..she definitely didn’t like it …my first wife never complained of that, but now I really have to watch myself, I can’t wear tight pants, and they have to be dark ,not white of gray pants. Wow, I never knew.